Unacceptance

sent to a world of unreachable dreams

a life to live with hurt

sounds of your laughter that buried my screams

a prayer that's gone unheard

why oh why do we hate so

why do we live with such shame

why oh why do we live so

careless, burning holes into our minds?

i keep thinking of all the promises broken

the lies, the abuse, the hurt

thinking of god and why my family's broken

why my prayers go unheard

why oh why do we hate so

why do we live in shame

why oh why do we live so

careless burning holes into our minds?

Father's turned his back on the family values

kicked over sandcastles dishonored my mom

put me down at every turn!

watched as my wife's family as they do the same thing

turn to god as a reason for why they're cruel

I sat and watched as her tears hit the floor

to see her heart's eternal duel

Why oh why do we hate so

why do we live in shame?

why oh why do we live so

careless burning holes into our minds?

Wishing for peace with my brother

wishing for peace from god

wishing for dreams of my family

to finally no longer be enemies...

No more burning holes into our minds.

Building that bridge between father and kid,

being punished for every stupid thing I said or did,

brother acted like he's big and strong,

not when some badguys came along,

only when he could beat me down,

picked on me because I'm the only one around.

Sister gave her heart for the dollar,

living a sara palin clone mindset

too good to give her sister a hollar.

Bragging all about that christian crusade,

but it's only them who's brandishing a blade.

Where in the bible does it say

if you hang with the dogs you catch fleas?

Why is their faith so weak that

the fear of marilyn manson brings them to their knees?

Criticize me on my morals as you cast me away

because my faith in god is expressed a different way

Doesn't your holy texts tell you to embrace the love

give your holy body to the powers above

it's not like you look to the sky to even see a peace dove

but it's been there, I sent it to you.

on it's leg a letter to you, one last dream for me and you

that we all become family under one god,

don't call it a name, just accept that we're odd.

We were created to do as we do,

it helps people live happily as we can show you.

We don't have to be involved in your mess

don't have to have our lives be ruined by

Ralph, Edith, Rebecca, Max and Jess.

If they want to hate us, we let them do so,

but knowing in god we are loved beyond what they know.

We know god loves us and has angels to tell us so.

We speak and write of wisdom that's in your books

and we'll share it so you can know.

We got to do things that you'll never get to do

we'll get to see things you'll never get to see

we'll make friends you'll probably never meet

and it's sad, I wish you'd all come with me.

It's a joy to have life friends, loyal and devoted,

can carry on justice in your life to the end,

with grace, dignity and honor. Not many have that.

We wish all those who'd turned their backs on us well.

We pray that they'll see our hearts still reach out to them

and wish to be family and no longer live in an emotional hell.

No more tears, just laughter and joy, I'd love it if my wife could

see her daughter and boy. The monster she'd bore children for

I wish would just disappear, and the family give them to us

so we can show them the right way to raise children.

Compassionate and understanding, intolerant of intolerance and

accepts no bullshit from stupid people, embraces the smart people,

teaching them to listen, teaching them to learn,

teaching them ways for their living to be earned.

Giving them things I know they never had,

a clean home, healthy food, a loving mom and dad.

My dream for the future I can plainly see

an image of a truly happy life, my wife, children and me.

so many unheard tapes, unheard songs I dream of completing but

rarely get a chance to do it because of all the distractions

I have that are out of my control.

I dream of one day doing the kind of art and songs that

bring peace in people's hearts and turn down people

who're evil and don't give evil a chance to thrive.

Evil's been rewarded for far too long,

it's time for my structures to regain in this song.

Sent to the world of unreachable dreams

a life to live with hurt

sounds of your laughter that buried my screams

my prayers they seemed unheard

just wanted acceptance you tossed me aside

treated me like you'd be happy if I died

creatures of darkness haunted my soul

whenever you hurt me I lost my control

tears flowed like waterdrops flooding the town

nightmares of homelessness tearing me down

knowing I got nowhere to turn it just makes me cry

the wall of unacceptance that's there, don't know why

The gods have created us the same way,

All of the rituals are heard the same way.

don't admonish me for my faith in god,

though my ways of expressing it are a bit odd.

I don't want to hurt anymore

or see my wife hurt anymore.

I don't want to hurt anymore

or see my wife hurt anymore.

What we have in common is we have family who'll never accept us

for who we are, and will always think we're nothing

but bums. We reach out to all those who're feeling the same

and send us a shout out and we hope that you join us and

pray.

Pray to all the gods, all the spirits, in a way they can hear us.

Music.

All sound is is music, all music is is sound.

some thoughts

I play ancient Persian classical songs that are in a language I don't really speak but love the way it sounds the instrumental sounds I hear in it my soul shines when I mimic it. I could play Indian classical music from a part of the world I'd never seen with my own eyes, but I know some part of it reaches to the core of my soul and makes me feel comfort and meditation, peace and harmony, love and laughter. Some people don't realize that the masters of music were the ancients who invented it! I happened to look into it so deeply that I'd let go of simpler forms of music, gone onto things that challenge my mind, and I find the finest music in the world are done by truly passionate and beautiful people. People who'd never do petty things, they'd just as much made music to reflect honestly the kindness of their spirits, the values of their morals, as they do in their day to day lives, the way they interact with everyone. The real heroes of the music world are super cool people who resonate beautiful energy you can't help but love. They are honest with what they say in their songs, they're honest with what they experience in their music, while the music is entertaining to listen to, entertainment is not of their concern, it's just what happens when they enter the stream of energy that flows in the universe, bringing a sentiment that blesses people's hearts with harmony and peace. I find the men and women who do music that I admire the most are also very good people, people who'd never once stolen money from a friend, live by a very ancient honor code personally and without knowing it, are just good people, it shows in the music they play, I don't listen to music done by mean spirits, I don't listen to music done by people who're wife beaters, drug addicts that would sell their mother for a hit, I don't listen to people who hurt their souls to gain inspiration to play music, I don't listen to musicians who dishonor themselves by playing music that doesn't relate to what's inside their hearts, what they love to play, what the people who love listening to them like to hear, it's a relationship with the world, and a harmony we musicians all seek to give to someone, somehow. To conjoin the world in love and harmony, creating a message that can be in everyone's home,something the whole world can love and appreciate, be considered as required listening in colleges around the world, that's a dream come true for all musicians of the world of all ages all walks of life. We all create music to be a focal point of love, and inspiring everyone to rejoice together with love, dance, music, food, drink, and good herbs! We're meant to be part of the world, we are just as important as everyone who comes to our shows. We all look at the the many heads in our audiences, we watch them enjoy us play, and it's a feeling unlike any other, especially if a stranger comes up, and watches with a big warm appreciation coming from every part of that person. It's a joy i need to feel right with the universe, something I need to do as a performer, I was born to perform, I need my people! Everyone who comes to my shows, everyone who plays with me, could potentially be a future member of my family. Because I have no brothers or sisters, my father's been way out of touch from my life, and intentionally, my mother and wife are all the family who's really involved in my life, so I adopt people to be my brothers and sisters. Not all of them wanna be adopted, but they know I won't ever hurt them and always will show them love when I see them. I do with all those who really want to be part of my family. Those who I have in my family treat me like family. And I benefit from it emotionally to know I know such great people.